I din't chat with him today

I feel so moody and sad~
anyone?
comfort?

HE OFFLINE AFTER SAW ME ONLINE!

BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEY OFFLINE TOGETHER AGAIN!!

WHY AGAIN!
I STOP THINK SO MUCH!
BUT...THEY KEEP DOING THAT IN FRONT OF ME!!!
I CAN'T STOPPING THINKING THAT BOTH OF THEM ARE TOGETHER!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH MY GOD!!

THEY OFFLINE TOGETHER!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

They online together!!

ARGHHHHH~ THEY ONLINE TOGETHER...THEY MIGHT GO OUT TOGETHER...
what happen to me??
why i think so much?
I very curious where they go! what is their relationship!
OH MY! WHAT HAPPEN TO ME?!!

FINE FINE FINE!!

Not going to find him anymore~!
If he find me thn oni i reply him!
im giving up!
because just now when i find him on skype!
he put away! actually he on long time ago and i think he got chat with that GIRL!

IM HURT!! AND IM GIVING UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's Christmas~!

Today i feel so boring...no feeling of christmas at all~!
not even 0.000000001%..
today need to go back to my hometown...before hometown..
i went to juscoo near my hse...
with my cousin sister..we were walking and window shopping~
so in the middle of the shopping..
my sis ran to me n says tat he saw Mr.J..
I was like..(WOW..I WANT TO SEE HIM!! SO LONG DID NOT SEE HIM..MISS HIM ALOT!!)
But sad thing is when i saw him from far...he ran away from me..
i was wondering that...am i really that scary?
T.T
SAD!!!
+ I met my aunt... she was sick badly...hope she will get well soon~
(IM HAVING A BAD DAY! BAD CHRISTMAS I GUESS)

I feel i have been fool

I feel like been fool by someone...
They like being together...but...they just acting duno wat each toher doing..
but i can feel..they actually noe...
like the guy...when both of them gt on~
they will on until very late..but if one of them were not in~
they will off very early..

~SAD+ING~

He stop replying me~

He stop replying me...thn i saw him on skype was away~
but after a few minute...a girl tat i mention before...she online skype..
thn i saw him online again~no more away~
so tis mean~??

Me & My dream man~

I hope to be with him so much~
but..let God arrange everything..
because..i found out that...Miss J likes My dream man too..
so let GOD arrange~

Bad news~

Yesterday~i got a bad news from clinic~
when i got a call from the clinic...the nurse told me that my report were bad...
so..i tot that i going to have a bad sick..cause the nurse say come back fast then will tell me...
so from genting highland..we rush back to the clinic..
after reaching the clinic...
and got my report...
the doctor says to me..u got a disease that cant be heal...so..i was so worry...the doctor say...the disease was (less/low blood) might come from my mother...
so my mom told the doctor..she did got the same thing..so the doctor told me..yes..it is came from my mother..
doctor told me not to worry..it's not going to harm me..because it is a minor disease...
but make sure my husband will not have the same sickness that i do..if not will harm my children as well..
so pray to GOD~<3 HE will arrange eveything for me~<3

hurt...

nowdays...
my leg and hand keep on paining n hurting...
im praying~
im ok n will be fine~
(Oh god..please heal me...i believe in faith)

SAD!!

i found out tat he gt on9 de~! ><
jz appear off9~T.T
y??
y he wana appear off9?
any1 tell me??

already 3 days i dint saw him on9~T.T

i miss him so much~ really hope 2 c him everyday~but..cnt...so wat i hoping is he cn on9 everyday...n chat wit me...
but nw~~
ALREADY 3 DAYS!! he dint on9~!! i miss him so much!!!

1st day~

i dint chat with him~T.T
he dint find me today~
mayb a short missunderstood between us~
he tot im nt satisfied~@@
i realy duno wat he tink leh~@@
any1 cn help me ma???

I feel very suffer~

sometime..he is so gud to me..sometime..he ignore me...
i really duno wat he wan~
anyone can tell me?


ANSWER???

feel

I can feel that me and him will not have a happy ending lor~
i dunt know...
im so afraid to think of him each time i with my friend~
when my friend receive a message ..she excited...im so afraid that *he* sms him~
i have no idea at all~
not at all~
i hope to be with him..
but...will it have a happy ending?
i hope so~

DEAR..ILIKEYOU~

crying~

first day of my life crying because of exam~
i cnt believe that i cried...
i force myself not to cry..but after one of my fren~she cried...i cnt stand it anymore...
i started to cry...
i cry..coz of two reason...1 is because of my exam~! i cnt do at all!! at all!!!!!!
and second...when i tink of him..i cried~!! i duno y~!! i miss him...i want him~! alot...
but firstly..i wan pass my exam~! i wan gt CGPA 3.00 atleast!!!!

waiting him...while revision~T.T

Im revision+ing my computer subject~
for 2moro exam~
im hardworking in that..because 2day..
my bi exam is terrible 2day~
i wan score 2moro's subject~!!
2day..i got ask him to accompany me...
i wan him to chat wit me to keep me awake....
i asked him to accompany me..thn he promised me...he say ok~
so i went for bath...thn after i finish bathing~he off9 le..
i wanted to call him...but...i dunt dare...sked he feel that i very *fan*..
so i decided not to find him~mayb he is tired~


Im still hoping..he could say he like me too~
I really love you my dear~!

Badminton~

Fun!!
i really have a lot of fun thou~
frm the beginning~
*he* called me..he told me tat he is not coming~
i was...wat the fish~
but~after playing few round~he came out~
i so happy~~~
xDD
i played with him~
i having alot of fun!!
really fun!!!
haha~~XDD
i become crazy over him dy~
but~my god ofcourse is stil the first~~
^^

I dunt understand what guy wan~

wat he wan?
i have already move 1 step forward..for the first time of my life..i ask the guy i like..does he got gf?
izit this wrong?
i just want to confirm that he can be love or not only~T.T
that's all~
but...i think he gets angry~T.T
he said..(why did every1 ask him the same question?)
in my mind~i said..i asked this question..cause i care...n i want to know...and the most important is i love and want you~
does this wrong?
im so afraid when i asked this question~im really nervous~T.T
but at the end~i get no answer...
so..should i continue loving him?
or~ start to learn *forget him*?
T.T
im so suffering~

yesterday..today..tomorrow~

yesterday..i chat with him excitedly....
today...he was just like ignoring me...
tomorrow...he maybe will run away from me...
T.T

Him??

i wan him..i need him~
i dunt know why...but..i feel if i got him in my life...my life would be more beautiful~
when everytime i chat with him~
he will just call me *dear*..and i will just call him *dear*
but...when someone on9~he will slow down his conversation with me...
im worry...yes! i did worry that i cant be with him!
i make wishes...( i want to be with *him*)
and my friend told me that~he will accept any girl..if he got feel toward that girl~
so..i hope im the girl~
i know this from a friend of mine~
can i be his???

Im happy or sad?

Today i got a good news...but...i not sure im happy with it or not~
I found out that he is single!
but..i don't feel good...because he is a good guy~many girl might like him~
and i really like him so much~(telling the truth)
he is a pretty good guy...and a caring guy~
can i be with him? this is the question and the problem..
i hope i can be with him~realy...i wan him to be my first love...can he?
T.T plz...allow me..oh god~give me a chance~
T.T

I like you, but you push me 2 him~

I dunt understand....i dunt know why..
he pushed me to other guy~
the person i like is him~
the night after fellowship with my mate...while want to go home..*he* told me that he will fetch me home..
but then at last..he pushed me to other guy and say that *its my chance*.(i hate the word)
i hope 1 day i can be with *him*..i realy like him..or maybe love *him*~
i duno~
i just hate the feel when he tell me other guy fetching me home...i hate that~! i no mood after that!
and the most sad thing is i lost my ring n also my necklace~!!! im so damn no mood 2day~!!

Im so happy but sad~(complicate)

Today...i went to sing k with few of my collegemate~im so happy..and we are having alot of fun~and that was really great~everyone enjoying it~ but then...i need to go home early.... im so dissapointed~i hope i can stay longer... so..after all that~ i went home.. i saw a status update...that he is working... so does all this mean that i cannot see him anymore? or will see him very less??because he surely will be very busy~~~ but i will still wish him luck.. because me and him is impossible.. haizzz~~~:'(

I have to forget~

yesterday was chatting with one of my senior....and he told me a really bad news for me...
while chatting~ we was talking alot about college~but not long after that~
we start to talk about Him...
and as we talk...and talk...sudden..my senior told me...yes..he got girlfriend already~
and they are very good together~
from that time onward~i feel very sad and moody~
suddenly so many moody thing comes into my mind~
- working
- my club
- account
- my cert
- my granduncle
and many more~!! im so MOODYY~!!!
so after i heard that~i noe its time for me to learn to let go.. because he got girlfriend already ...

(LET GO)

less on9~

i going to start working next week...haiz...
tiring~hope to not work~
thn got ppl gime money use~XD

but wait ba~mayb wunt got tis kind of ppl tim~T.T
n ..if i dint on9..i cnt meet him on9 le~~T.T
i just hope he will come to my office and work with me~thats my wish~~~T.T

it was a great prayer meeting~

Today i went for prayer meeting~i was so tired..try to sleep...@@
but..suddenly..until half tat time...
i was prayed to god..* oh lord...please wake me up..i want to pray..*
so after tat moment..i start to awake..then God touch my heart..i start to feel the present of him n i cried...

Went to the music concert yesterday~

i having fun if i dint mention about our *sesat* jalan~
so...i realy enjoy the concert..thn i realy enjoy that with my senior..
da music was fantastic..i love it so much~
especially john lucas~
i dint say i dont like the voice of the other...they hav a realy nice voice too..
but john lucas gt a soft voice n also a hard voice..i just dunt noe hw 2 describe his voice...1 word..fantastic...God giv him a pretty nice voice to glorify His name~
so he can sing soft n also hard song~~
i realy love Him~ john lucas is also very frenly...tat he told us to add him on facebook..having fun alot~!!!!!
if can...after getting the pic from my senior..i will upload some picture~~


~cheer~

the capital H-I-M

was stil tinking bout him~

stil the same..

today...i out with my friend..
v went to eat kfc..but..da miracle is i eat abit..i full le@@
i duno y..realy hard 2 continue fit da food..
my favourite mashpotato i oso ate abit@@

today already 2 day i dint realy eat..

I cnnt even fit any food into my mouth..@@
duno da reason y...
last time i cn eat alot...realy alot..sometime two bowl of rice...but now..i cnt even fit 1 bowl of rice into my stomach..
any1 cn help me 2 cure tis?

Its a day i chat with him~

I hav a short conversation wit him n other fren of mine~
i duno...he jz like normal...chatting with me..
v hav a fun conversation...
but in my heart was thinking that i hope he can tell me that he like me..
but i know that is impossible...
i just hoping to happen in the future....
all i can do is pray~ and pray~

In love with someone i should not love..

Accually...i put this title as (sudden got a feel wana blog) but i change it..cause the real title up here is my real feeling...
So...here its come...yes..on the monday i went to genting...
and i dint eat frm the second day...tell u all something..that is not me..because i cannot even skip 1 meal...but since the second day noon..after i had little of my lunch...i don't feel like eating anymore...
i dont know the reason why..but...i think...i like someone...
this is my first time i wrote on the blog about the person i like...
i saw he very good to the girl..he did not tell me that he likes me..but..the point is i like him..when i saw he very good to the other girl..i feel so sad..i cannot show it out that im sad..because..v are mate...
after i saw he treat her so good...i feel like empty...
but..i need to continue living too...i cannot stop here...so if they really couple..i will just wish them luck...
the feel realy suck...
after the genting...i went home...the weather help me to speak out my feeling..its heavy rain..and im tired...im very hungry too...i realy did not eat for 2 days...this i never try before...maybe this is the real meaning of love...but i love someone that i should not love...

A story of HIM and 2 HER...

Ms.S is the 1ST HER
Ms.A is the 2nd HER

Here the story begin..oneday.. HIM ..invited Ms.S to a trip…Ms.S refuse..but HE wants Ms.S to go..So..after Ms.S think…she accept the invitation…they went to the trip together…on the first day before they went to the trip..Ms.S went college early..Ms.A also went college early..so we went for a short chat…then on that day, He came to college late..Ms.A just keep on talking everything bad about Him..gossiping bad thing about Him..But..actually, Ms.S don’t feel the same..she feel that He is good..after all of them went to the shopping mall to buy thing for the trip..He treat Ms.S so good , Ms.S start to like Him..But is it real? So the story continue with on the trip..
(on the first day before went to the trip..Ms.A was talking bad about him..but now)
On the place of their trip..Ms.A start to get herself close to him..so Ms.S feel that,that is not fair to him cause..she is just a two face people..like yesterday was talking bad about him..then today suddenly get herself close to him..she just like start to like him..
Ms.S was jealous..she don’t like Ms.A so close to him..but she cnt do anything ..at the end..Ms.S saw Ms.A with him just like couple…so she just lost all her appetite of eating and of everything..Ms.S dunt know the truth..but..she is very disappointed of this..cause Ms.S thought that she will get to know Him more and maybe can get with him together..at the end..they just can be a very normal friend…maybe in the future...
Hoping to see the happy ending...wish Ms.S luck..

Sometimes~

Sometimes..it jz come to a moment i duno how 2 comunicate...
Sometimes..i juz duno how 2 communicate wit my parent..
Sometimes..i duno how to communicate wit my brother and sister..
There's many time..i hav an arguement wit my parent..mayb it;s my fault...but..sometimes when we try to update ourself to our parent..they jz dunt understand..
jz like the conversation below...
Me: hello daddy..
Dad: hello.
Me: dad..im going out with my friend tomorrow...
Dad: owh..go where?
Me: im going to genting highland..
Dad: with who?
Me: with some of my friend in college...
Dad:u dont make so many trouble la..
Me: (dad,im jz here to inform u,i jz want to go out with my fren..tis also cnt?for the past 19 years..i dint even go out with any of my fren other thn church member..tis is my first time oso dunt let?) tis is wat in my mind dad..i juz go out with them and ply..the coming week is my holiday week..

Dad:Owh..then becareful lor..
Me: Ok..bye
end conversation...

Footstep..

Let me tell u all a story..
its about *a person* n Jesus..
one day..a person walking on the beach..
while he walk n walk....he looked back..he saw two footstep...tats *his* n Jesus..
he walk n walk n walk...he felt tired tired n tired...
he looked back...but he only saw a footstep..
so he stopped..n ask...Jesus,y when i tired...u leave me walk alone..?
so Jesus just ans..."my dear son, u r nt alone...im always wit u...the reason u only saw a footstep is becoz when u got tired,im carrying u...so tat is my footstep..

2moro exam~~OHMY~account~

i was waiting 4 2moro..
v hav 3 chapter...i i hav memorize all 2 chapter formula...
jz another 1 more formula 2 go~


+U+U...

This is my prayer n wat i should b..

i pray..2 take away da proudness frm me..bcoz i feel tat i start 2 bcm very proud of myself..
Im here..wana ask God 2 help me in tis..
SEND ME DA SPIRIT OF HUMBLENESS..
I dunt wan 2 "say big" bout myself..i wan humble n glory God's name..
AMEN

EXAM~~STRESS~~!!

nex week exam..
realy duno wat 2 do...
haizz~~nw wat i nid 2 do is jz studyyyy~!!!

OMgoshh

i come bac frm holiday ...
but actualy nt realy enjoy da holiday~haiz...

wat a **** sister i hav!!!

she jz love 2 fight wit me...
v jz cn stay harmony 4 1 day!!!
ok...dont 1 day~jz 1 min oso cnt!!
if u put me n her in a room...
im sure...
1 of us sure will die inside 1!!!
arghhh~!!!

SHIT LA~~~

jz nw i went 2 police station 2 do report..so dumb dumb...
she asked me..cm police station wan do wat?
walao eh~i go police station ofcuz do report 1 ma...if nt..i wan stay or wan makan ther meh??
ok~tat's ok~but her attitude..BAD!!!
like shit...arghhh~~plz la...be manners abit...

Wat a daee!!

2day~v gt lotz of homework 2 doo~~realy lott~~~
haiz~so pity~so many homework~do until i sot sot lyk tat de~
but~atlast~im done~~hope no wrong ba~~^^

Y nwday de children all like shit!!

they so idiot...so no manner..duno their mother gt teach or nt!!2moro!!imma goin 2 my brother skol n 5 tat kid！！wat a noob thing!!
a kid's was making trouble wit me!! shit!! here is the fb conversation!
Serene Yeo May 9 at 10:17pm

(你讲话小心点。。我弟弟对你做过什么，你可以直接跟我讲。。不要骂粗口。。
新宇 May 9 at 10:32pm Report
diam 7
Serene Yeo May 9 at 10:32pm
你明天等我去学校找你。。
新宇 May 9 at 10:33pm Report
哦 ）
WAT A KID!!!!!

Oh yaa~~2day mama's day~

2day is mama's day~but i dint treat my mami eat..wat a bad child..i jz buy a lotion 4 her...coz i noe she work hard juz 2 giv us eat...n i find out her lotion is out of stock..lol..means no more la...
so...i buy a lotion 4 her~haha...
although tat is cheap..but my mami stil happy getting it...
so..when she happy..n i will b happy too^^

~love u mami~

Laptop matter..

wat la..i gt a lap top..but duno hw 2 use..wher 2 5 webcam?
hw 2 use bluetooth..all duno..buy so gud de laptop 4 wat ne..nid 2 bring 2 shop ther ask him lerh~haiz...gud laptop must nt always gud de...nw i understand...

new laptop..

HOHO...i gt my new laptop...mean??
i'll gt 2 do many thing...(ehhemm...dunt luan luan think...)
i mean doin assignment n homework in my hse...no nid go cc le...
happyyyyyy..........

Tuesday..

i tot 2day was mon coz ytd no claz..haha..2moro english claz..happy..haha..2day my mood very gud,coz i receive my mum cal tat da laptop v ask ytd,frm 2499 to 2399..so i so so happy cn buy tat..hohoho..

Melaka+ing trip..

im realy moody 2day! So so moody..no mood 2 talk..take pix..easy say..2day is nt hu im..wat i say..they dunt care..they cnt hear me..c me..im ntg in their eye..its ok..ntg goin 2 move me..nw..im talking 2 u..'Im goin 2 b cool 2 u frm nw onward..it jz hard 4 me 2 cont warm 2 u..coz u dunt care..fine..n tats all'..n oh ya..by da way..i love my tour guider n da bus driver..they r big..but they did take a gud care of us..n da mosttt big thx is my god 4 his protection..

NO MOOD AT ALL!

I hav tried 2 enjoy..but ther is jz an emptiness..i tried..but it jz dunt help,i force myself 2 enjoy..i jz cnt..I JUZ CNT DO TAT! I CNT!!

Cn tis nitemare stop!

tis day is so suck,they r pretending..i dunt care..wateva they do..im nt goin 2 care so much..away frm u? EASY KAY! I cn do tat anytym..i dunt do tat coz my God! He hav send me here 2 grow..nt destroy..so wateva u do..IDK! Bla bla bla! Im here 2 stay wit Him n grow wit Him..so tat's all..! Tq..

the day i leave my office..

when da day near...i was tinking..im goin 2 leave..i might hav lil tym 4 me 2 g0 bac 2 my ex office..im goin 2 miss tat tym v ply 2gether..we work 2gether..we talk 2gether..we almost do eveything 2gether lol...im goin 2 miss all this...So..here..im saying 2 all my ex curlic...dunt 2 miss me...but im goin 2 miss all of u..if u all goin anywher 2 play ..dunt 4get me yah..

life in kelantan..

here is realy hot,realy realy howt..terrible,wil go shopping l8r,wil update söön..^^